F*cked up life
Kategori: MyMind
Hi again,
Right now, a lot is happening in my life. I moved away from my home, broke up with my boyfriend (which hurt so much, but is okey now, because neither of us are on the same level as we were when we were together, we don't feel the same anymore, and we both changed, a lot. I know I changed a lot, and now he dosen't seem like the same person I fell in love with. Which is both sad and good to know.), I met some new awsome friends, and "recently" (like 3 weeks ago) I met one person that seemed to be such a nice one, that turned out not to be that. He was very nice, and invited me and my friend to hang out with his friends. But then someway he changed. Like very fast. We have met like 4 times, and the first one was cool, the second time too, the third time was weird, and the fourth time was the first time I met him alone to talk about all the weird things that had happened (he told me things I thought I wasn't supposed to hear, and weird things that I didn't want to know, so I needed to talk to him, and question what the fuck was happening). And he talks about me with his friends, talking like I was his girlfriend or something, and that makes me so uncomfortable. He said things like "I met a girl" "I talks to her all the time" (which is true, and damn annoying, and I'm trying not to answer, even tho it is hard when it is innocent questions like "how are you today" and I don't want to be mean either, and I just don't know how to handle this), "I'm uncomfortable around her, but I can't let her go" (this he said to my face and thought he was a bit weird (he WAS), but that it is true and he can't stop thinking about me, and that he misses me, but can't say it in any way that isn't weird). And he is so creepy, and I don't want to be anything more than friends with this human (if even that), I think he understand that (because I said it to his face), but he still keeps saying inpropirate things and beeing weird. Now I don't even wanna be friends with him. He is creepy, uncomfortable to be around, he lies about a lot, he wants to be something he doesn't even know himself (he said he want me, but not sure how. And you just DON'T SAY THAT, because that is weird, and creepy and odd and horrible, becasue he knows I don't want him (I REALLY DON'T), and he says he doesn't want to be more than friends either, but he doesn't stop "complimenting" me with his words that just comes out wrong).
And this whole situation is just weird and creepy and uncomfortable and horrible and unpleasant.
And I want out. I never want to talk to this human beeing again. I ignore his messages, thank god he doesn't have my number, so he can't pester me there too. His friends even thinks this behavior is weird.
So can he just stop? Please! I don't want this mess. I don't want to be any psycologist that tries to help this poor human who can't even deal with himself. I feel bad for him, but mostly so creept out that I don't want to meet him ever again!
So sorry for this veryy long text, but I just needed to write down my thoughts. And I feel so creept out and just shiver all the time. Because this is uncomfortable and awkward and bad. And I'm not sure how I can avoid him.
Well, we'll hope for more positivity in the next post :)
